I am trying to get my self motivated after the deaths of both my grandma's not even 90 days apart......I miss them with everything I am because I am not doing what I feel is worthy of their last memory of me.....I WANT them to see that their children had children who exemplified their upbringing.... AND kept their teachings of God AND how to just be a decent human being alive .....I don't want them to worry that their lives here were lived in vain......