I have always considered myself to be strong and independent; an able and capable woman who needed to rely on no one. Now I feel as though I do not know how to BE without my husband, I loved him dearly and completely. Even when his mishegas was driving me crazy, I loved him. I miss him so much, I keep waiting for him to come into the room to turn on the television. I do know that as time passes my grief will fade and I will not feel so heavy hearted. Yet, I can't believe that will happen because I need him to be here with me, to talk to me and laugh with me, and to tell me that I'm a cheapskate and that he loves me. What do I do?