Since I was a child and my dad got sick and died, I have always had health anxiety. Right now, I know test results have come in the mail, but I am not at home to read them. Even if I were at home, I would experience great anxiety just to make the decision to open the envelope and read them. In this instance, they are my mammogram results. My sister had (and survived) breast cancer. My niece tested positive for the BRCA II gene mutation (I have not been tested - you can imagine why). I wish I could be free of this fear that always surrounds me when it comes to seeing a doctor, having tests, getting results. I guess I also don't feel like I am a strong enough in my Christian faith to go against these fears. Thank you for your prayers on my behalf.