I'm keeping this anonymous because I'm ashamed. My cousin passed away young last Wednesday and our family pet passed away on Friday. I pleaded to God to save their lives. I know God isn't there for wishes and his plan is bigger than mine, but I am mad at Him. I can't pray or even think to open my Bible. Pray that I may return to Him and his Word because right now I don't ever want to. My grief is eating away at me and I feel abandoned. Watching my children grieve and cry makes me question how our father could allow such heartache. I lost my faith.