Struggling to make the relationship work and seems like at least more and more myself and he becomes more and more controlling and manipulative and sexually abusive. Disregarding my feelings, disregarding my boundaries and please for respect. When I'm able to catch a break or time frame to get away or finally find help I end up right back in the same situation because I'm scared of what he'll do to others around me, myself or himself we live with him when he finds me every time. I end up hurting myself and beating myself up over not leaving not being strong enough to do so and become more depressed and lost.