God failed me. He allowed some garbadge in my life... So... I DO NOT WANT TO KNOW GOD. I WANT TO BECOME GOD...I want my life that God denied me to have. God is not a respector of persons and none should perish...? I want my life to go my way. To be world famous, making money, raising my kids, and not sell anything to survive. I want my art that people had taken from me... I wish to not know God with a different sibling. I will save people my way. The helk with what God wants for me. I want my life my way. God failed me.